I will help people with this book.

My body and life


I want my body to operate normally.  It’s unlikely that the things my body is experiencing happened because my van went over a cliff, and it’s strange there were no broken bones in my body. When I was younger, I broke both legs and one arm, and I’ve had back surgery for scoliosis. Its odd none of the places I had surgery earlier in my life were affected or re-broken. That tells me before the van was sent over a cliff, my body must have been unconscious.

The following describes my bodies problems.

Santa Rosa Hospital doctors figured my vision would return to as it was, the eye professionals thought it was just double vision. To see properly I must cover my right eye.

Unlike a typical dry skin and water sensation, the feeling I have when I walk into a moderate temperature pool is mildly piercing and strangely unusual, and It’s difficult to suspend my body underwater.

My bladder needs to be emptied frequently and the feeling of urgent necessity increased.

I need to rest my body all the time and I fall asleep quickly even when I’ve just had caffeine.

I cough up small amounts of mucus in the mornings.

Cracking an egg, in a normal fashion, is a ridiculous thing.  

When I write, it resembles a child’s handwriting.

I walk with slow, cautious, mindful steps. Walking fast is impossible. I walk like an handicapped frail woman.

My feet and legs are always internally cold. I cover my feet even when the weather is hot.

It’s difficult to speak, I voice my words slowly. My speaking voice sounds like that of a mentally ill person.

In the next paragraphs I write about what happened at the places I had to live.

I was taken to Lakeview Terrace Nursing Home in Los Angeles, it had been several months since my van went over the cliff, and my ear was still giving me plugged up issues. I was never seen by a medical doctor in that nursing home and I NEVER told anyone about my ear problem. Then one day a person walked into my room, the man declared he specialized in the ear nose and throat, all the guy said was that I have a lot wax and he left.

Also, when I was at Lakeview Terrace, the nursing home sent me to the community hospital in Norwalk for a drug test and the test results proved I didn’t take pharmaceuticals or any other drugs. After that a man, calling himself a doctor, asked me if I wanted to be checked into psychiatry.

When I was taken to the residential prison-like property in Sun Valley, I rejected the taking of pharmaceuticals and the staff still pushed those drugs. I believe it was most likely because they would be financially compensated if I took pharmaceuticals. Also, at that prison-like property, I was told to see a person who called himself a doctor, the guy had pill bottles filled with pharmaceuticals and my name was printed on the containers. I asked the person for his business card, but the guy posing as a doctor refused my simple request. The man left and the caretaker hid the drugs.

Also, when I was at the residential prison-like property, I think my laptop computer was used to find out who I was contacting and what I was doing on the internet.

When I was staying at Kedren hospital in Los Angeles, and College Medical in Long Beach, both places had me go to court, and they each got a court order to inject me with pharmaceuticals if I refused to take the pill form. I refused to take the drugs.

A domain name I used to own has been taken. I know the site is a dangerous place now. I put my Handy Goddess website, a domain name I used to own, on my wurden.com website.

Someone tried to blackmail me. I made a WordPress page showing the blackmail emails, it’s on this website links page.

My speaking voice has been damaged. I must cover my right eye to see properly.

If you see me, you’ll see my body moves as if it was poisoned.

I believe it was an attack.

Book Synopsis written again

When I, the inventor of cellphone accessories was in Silicon Valley, I left the prototypes for my inventions on an investor’s doorstep. I assumed, with that risky move, the investor would eventually call and ask to see me. To protect my unsafe move, on another day and from a different town, I sent a well-known celebrity businessman, a person that I’d been emailing for three years, an email telling him what I did. I also sent the celebrity the same video I made for the investor that shows how my prototypes function. It was a few days later I sent a different email to a friend, from the same restaurant in town where I sent the celebrity businessman’s email a few days earlier. I left the restaurant and got in my van then woke up in a hospital.

Was vehicle cliff-dive staged? The newspaper said the 100-foot vehicle cliff-dive, that I was in, happened outside city limits.

The Doctors from the hospital I was in after I was rescued, thought my vision would return to normal after six months, but it did not.  I must cover or close my right eye to see properly. The position of my eye seems to have been moved.  Another weird thing was my physical structure didn’t have any broken bones. And I’m really puzzled that my body suffered bizarre injuries. My voice sounds like that of a mentally ill person now.  I used to be quite dexterous with my hands, now manipulation is difficult and awkward. My feet and legs are cold internally even when the weather is warm. And my structure moves like a hundred-year-old body.

Before the suicide-appearing staged vehicle cliff-dive I was a fit and healthy person. You can witness how I used to be by watching my videos on the web; I created The Handy Goddess home improvement show, it’s both a comedy and serious DIY channel on YouTube. I have another channel too; it’s called, Faux Painting Samples, I made the channel for my instructional decorative painting videos.

On the day I was released from the hospital, I was taken to Lakeview Terrace in Los Angeles where I was forced to live in that psychiatric nursing home. Why did they put me in that place? Was it because of the way my voice sounded, or was it because of my distorted vision, or possibly was it because of the way my body moved, or whoever staged the vehicle cliff-dive were they trying to destroy with my life?

In the psychiatric nursing home, I found there were hundreds of industry professionals that I would have contacted to fund my inventions. If I had the resources earlier in my life, after I finished the prototypes, I would have reached out to them.

When I was at the nursing home, I sent emails to businesses that knew carrying a cellphone in a pocket was harmful. I only wrote generalities about my inventions; no one responded, which was unusual. About that time, my provisional patent lawyer, in an email, said my inventions were made public. I only showed the video, I made for the investor, to the celebrity businessman and my sister. Oddly, the provisional patent lawyer said my file was closed even though I still had a month before I would need to file patents.

After a year, I was moved out of the psychiatric nursing home and relocated to a residential prison-like secluded property. At that place I’m certain my computer was hacked, and I know my actions were watched closely. My belief is, I was forced to live in an isolated environment because I invented products that will help people prevent infertility, and someone wanted to keep an eye on me.

After existing for almost five months in that prison-like hell, I found a way out. I told my friend and he told my sister. She told lies and I was put in another psychiatric facility. The institution was a lock-down acute mental health facility. In that place they got a court order to force pharmaceuticals in me. I survived for three months in psychiatric confinement, but they couldn’t hold me at that facility because I had a healthy mind.

I endured life in three psychiatric facilities and two homeless shelters. I was forced to live in those hellish environments, and because of my voice, they all assumed mental illness.

I was disrespected by a lot of people, including my family and friends.

But my belief in my inventions, and what they will do, has kept me alive. Knowing I will write this book keeps me alive too. People use your mind, my brain is normal how else could I write. And how could I have built and created the websites. 

I’m resolved to help people develop spiritual strength with my writing.